Faith is the predominant theme in this blog, whether or not its overtly conveyed. I’ve written about my experiences that call for faith that God will do what he says he will? Does he mean it when he says that we are more important than sparrows and lilies? Does God know what we need, what we really need, and will he provide it?
“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.” (Matthew 6:26-28 NIV)
I must be a remedial case. God continually seeks to teach me the wisdom behind these verses because I’ve needed to consciously rely upon God for everything … every thing.
I start a new job Monday. And I have been thrashing through light sleep each night, my mind attempting to figure out how to make it through the transition until there are regular paychecks. I’ve been seriously stressed, and stressed about feeling stressed. It has been exhausting to pray continually about every single aspect of daily life month after month. Yet, because of the weariness, I’ve changed my prayers. Now, it’s more of a matter-of-fact conversation. I simply remind the Lord of what I need, my dependence upon his provision, and to thank him for his practical care, even though I don’t know how or when his provision will show up.
Yesterday morning I felt nudged to write down my prayer for specific needs. Why? It’s not because I feel comfortable with the notion. I think that some dear person, only God knows who, needs encouragement that he welcomes the opportunity to meet our every need and, furthermore, loves to do so. We are not burdens to him and our needs are not burdens to him.
Tuesday, January 17 at 9:30 a.m.:
Lord, there is no money for gas to get to New Mexico. I don’t have the means to pay for temporary housing. There’s no food now, and no money to buy any. I have only one appropriate outfit to wear to work. I need a haircut in the worst way. It’s several weeks before there will be a paycheck. I need help, God. I need your help. You’ve sustained me so far, I know you will continue to do so. Thank you for your provision. He says he’ll provide. You say I’m not supposed to worry about food and clothing. You know I need these things.
It is not easy for me to wait for your provision, especially at this point. I’m too exhausted. I don’t have the strength for much praying. I lift up my empty hands as a symbolic expression of need.
Last night, God’s answer for all of my immediate needs showed up. Once again, God prompted someone to be his gracious, generous means. Last night God taught me, again, that I am more important than a sparrow, and more important than a lily. So are you!